Articles
A Kind of Blessing
- understanding the power of menstruation
by Alexandra
Pope © 2002
The stress sensitive barometer in women, the menstrual cycle is an exquisite
system for sensing both physical and psychological wellbeing. Menstruation
is an initiatory moment. Women can potentially open to a highly charged altered
state, giving them access to a singular kind of power - the power of self
awareness, deep feeling, knowingness, intuition. A power that matures over
time with each cycle.
Most women might find it strange to talk of the menstrual cycle and menstruation
as useful and powerful beyond its baby making function. This is not surprising.
Too long we have been tyrannised around our bodies. To get anywhere professionally
we've had to deny the life of our uteruses and silence our emotional authority
for fear it would be labelled as 'losing it' or 'not rational',
in other words not intelligent. The word 'hysteria' comes from
the Greek for womb, hustera. Our wombs were seen as unstable organs,
making us unstable. Whilst medical science has moved on from those fifteenth
century
notions, in today's atmosphere there still lingers a feeling that
women are essentially unpredictable and unreliable beings because of the
menstrual
cycle.
No wonder women have needed to tread carefully when drawing from an authority
that was not of the intellect. An authority coming instead from a knowingness,
from the fullness of our senses and sensual nature. It is only in recent
years that emotions have gained some currency. Emotional intelligence is
a frequently
used phrase today now that Science (male) has come up with the "hard" evidence
making Emotions (female) respectable!
To begin to open again to the fullness of the experience available to us at
menstruation may take time. It is important firstly to recognise cycles are
the very basis of life, the means by which nature and humans regenerate. To
go against them is a recipe for disaster. Listening to them adds a richness
and connection to life. Women who medicate their menstrual cycle through the
use of the Pill are in danger not only of harming their physical health, but
also of cauterising the depths of their inner nature. Something will never
feel complete.
The tendencies in the ovulatory phase of the cycle are more outer focussed,
linear, left brain, feeling fairly clear (no messy emotion) and productive,
with plenty of energy for others.
As we move into the menstrual phase of the cycle women tend to become more
inner focussed. The transition to this inner state is often signalled by
feelings of irritability, anger, overwhelm, greater dreaminess and vagueness.
The people
around us often feel more like an irritant. Opposites are amplified. For
example you may experience feeling driven one moment and then flip into
it's opposite,
becoming drifty and dreamy the next. A feeling of purposefulness may fall away
to be replaced by a questioning about one's life. This can also take the
form of criticism of self and others, or simply depression. Equally there are
moments of spaciousness and even peacefulness (if you're not too busy),
passionate feeling, heightened intuition, psychic ability and strong dreaming.
The single most dominant characteristic of this phase is sensitivity. We
become more permeable both to our own depths and also to the world.
Ironically the power of menstruation comes from the one thing we usually
condemn in ourselves at this time: this very sensitivity. It is a wonderful
opening
to feeling and spirit. If we can travel through this opening with greater
acceptance, we'll experience over time an illumination and knowingness that will suffuse
the whole of our life. Our deep feelings are an awesome intelligence, a form
of knowing, sometimes prescient, that goes beyond surface realities. Without
our capacity for depth of feeling, and, yes, it includes all the so called "negative" ones,
life would lack meaning and intimacy, ecstasy and joy .
The sensitivity extends the acreage of our souls, encourages us to examine
and challenge ourselves and the world we live in. If the task feels too great,
the sensitivity of menstruation too overwhelming, we should neither condemn
ourselves nor menstruation. That would be like shooting the messenger. Instead
we must learn to value and harness the power that comes from our greater openness.
Take a stand for more womanly ways of knowing that can track feeling, listen
to gut instinct, notice synchronicities, catch the intuitive flashes and recognise
the connections between all things. Intellect is immeasurably matured by such
skills of knowing.
There is much that is numbing, deadening and flattening about life in our
post industrial high-tech world. The speed alone at which most of us live
and the
subsequent fatigue that engenders wears down the senses and spirit. Menstruation
is a return to the body and a subsequent revitalising of those senses.
Inevitably there may be some disturbance as we 're-enter' and reawaken metaphorical
and literal nerve endings. I feel much of the premenstrual anger and frustration
is an indignation of the soul at the amount of soullessness that exists today,
even in spiritual quarters. The life of our sensual, ecstatic bodies is being
too easily eroded from all sides. Without the livingness of our 'bodies':
the vitality of our senses, the pleasure of our complex and rich feelings,
we lose our humanity.
In the native American tradition it is said that a women redreams the world
when she bleeds. The revitalizing of all her senses allows her to 'see' the
world again with fresh eyes. She is privileged in that moment with an extraordinary
intimacy, with the particularity of things, as though she were feeling
with her whole being. A moment of epiphany, spaciousness and vision are
hers.
The intensity of menstruation is going to vary from woman to woman depending
upon our individual temperaments and willingness to court the life of
our bodies. We will all have are own personal take. Whilst the qualities
I
describe are
to some extent a given, that is they arise unbidden, your task is to
give space to them. Don't imagine you can continue on the same as before...doing,
doing, doing. Stillness, silence and solitude as well as your care and
love
for yourself are the allies in this process. For some of you it may be
more of a quiet, subtle process for others it may be incredibly intense.
Many of
our menstrual symptoms are the shadow side of not understanding the forces
we are wrestling with at this time. Those who suffer menstrually carry
the dispossessed 'voices' of menstruation for all of us.
Through the monthly cycling of her body, a woman has the opportunity to cultivate
internal authority. A Native American saying states that at menarche a woman
enters her power, through her menstruating years she practices it and at menopause
she becomes it. True power comes from our capacity to travel in both inner
and outer worlds, to experience emotional and spiritual depths along with our
intellectual rigour. This is true for both women and men. Women are blessed
with an inner process, the menstrual cycle, that reminds us of and supports
these capacities. This is a wonderful gift. A kind of blessing.